As I continue to move through my process of adjusting to being physically apart from Jon again, I get to confront the desire that comes up for me to be something different than who I am now, someone who is worthy of the Love that I receive from him, … someone who does not get to deal with the challenges that I get to confront, especially my addictive behavior.
Yet, as I breathed through my stuff this morning, I noticed how easy and naturally the breath came to me. I noticed how little effort it took to settle down and to have my mind and heart rest in a place where I could move forward into my day. And so I realized:
It doesn’t take effort to be your essential self.