On Knowing Myself as Love
by mnobleza
“We have come to accept such declarations of faith as commonplace and natural. We breathe, we eat, knowing that certain things will result. We turn on the lights, start the car, light a fire, plant a garden without a bit of hesitancy, fear, or doubt. We have faith. We know certain things work in a certain way and that is all there is to it.”
- Ernest Holmes and Willis H. Kinnear, A New Design for Living
Yesterday, I was feeling really confronted by the overwhelming frustration that I would never be able to let go of the addictive behaviors that have run me. I was relating to myself again as a limited being, as the powerless self to which my self-talk has taught me to relate. As I sat in meditation, I found enough space to remember that I am much more than that, … that although I don’t yet have the experience of being powerful in the face of my addiction, that that possibility exists and that the choice I have is between staying trapped in that self-fulfilling, self-defeating prophecy or to have faith that I am letting go of and recovering from my compulsions.
I must remember. I must know to the core and beyond my fears that I am the beautiful and unique expression of Love.
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